Quick update

Ellie is doing wonderful. She loved having all her stuff waiting for her when she got to Las Vegas and jumped out of the car and straight to the door like she knew where she was (she has never been there before). So accidents, no whining, no upset tummy. She loves playing outside. Loves sleeping in my aunts room on her bed. Follows everyone everywhere. I am still a wreck... cry almost anytime someone mentions her (even at my birthday lunch yesterday with friends...man was that embarrassing....I can't control the tears) Today I am being forced to celebrate my birthday and be happy. I hate being a Debbie downer.....but I really would just like to stay home. Birthday's are not the same for me since my mom died last year. She was really big on birthdays and said that it was her "special day" too. She was not suppose to have kids. Her "plumbing", as she called it, was all screwed up and dr.'s had told her since she was young, that kids would never be a possibility. Maybe in time I'll want to celebrate again....but right now...between Ellie being gone, thinking about my mom, and having a horrible upset stomach ...all I want to do it just relax and not be forced to be happy. (yup forced, since Geoff thought it would be fun to do a double birthday with our friends even after he knew that I was not wanting anything special. Seriously, last year I cried through most of my birthday....it hit me worse than mother's day did!) Time to suck it up for the team.