Need to Vent...

With all that has been happening with Ellie and life being busy in general I have no idea why I am even venting this on this blog. I guess this is cathartic to some degree. I know as we get older in life...friendships change. Some friends who were friends in high school might no longer be our friends now. Some friends who were our friends a few years ago might not be anymore. Well I have one friendship in particular that I see going separate ways. (and I'm pretty sure she doesn't check this thing ...and if she does read it...well at least it's out there) In the past she was a wonderful friend. Now...I barley know her. I still check on her life on myspace and boy, is she having a grand old time! I can count the times on 1 hand her pictures don't include a grown up beverage. She loves her some bars. She also seems to be hanging out with friends that party and like the bar scene too. Some of them seem like they just don't want to grow up. It's always the same "so and so got wasted" banter when I see her "party like a rock star" friends. I feel like I am in college when I talk to them...then it's like...wait...I'm 27 and hate going to bars were a bunch of drunk college guys/single men are in a smokey bar that you have to scream so others can hear a conversation. Been there. Done that. Maybe I'm acting old ...but I think I got all the bar hopping and crashing on people's couches out in my early 20's. Being in a sorority helped :) But even when I moved to NC right after college, I partied 1 year and was pretty much done. Now I can barley stay out till 1am...let alone last call. And that's once in a blue moon. Don't get me wrong. I still go out with my friends, we still have our cocktails. But it's more of a tamer version. Early nights. What got be ticked off for a few days now is knowing this friend (who is always busy with some event) was actually close to me and not miles away and didn't bother to call and say "hey wanna do lunch" for some point during her stay. Maybe my schedule wouldn't work out since I was going to Atlanta later that weekend, but the thought would have meant the world to me. She managed to have time to update her myspace page, but not enough time to call. It's not like I can see her very often aways with her schedule being so busy. Ughh...I'm just hurt is all. I hate growing up... Vent over.....Taking my big girl pill